I'm Becoming a Bit Fearful...

I've come to a frightening realization this week...I am afraid of the "Empty Nest". Don't get me wrong, I'm not sending E and N away to military school or anything like that. I've just had a little glimpse of life with no children at home and I really don't like it! This past week Hubby was out of town on business travel, A was away at the beach, E has worked at the church from sun-up to sun-down, and N is like a vapor - sometimes here, sometimes gone but never really around. So it's just been me...and the dogs. I think the thing that has made it even more difficult is that A will be playing a bride in a Father's Day skit at church this Sunday. (I'm sure I will have the video posted next week!) I started bawling at the practice this Wednesday and she wasn't even there to play her part.

When brought A home from the hospital everyone (Yes! EVERYONE) said, "They grow up so fast!" That doesn't even begin to cover the speed with which they grow. With our first child we are so anxious for that next big event, when will they turn over, say "Mamma" or "Dadda", walk, run, go to Pre-School, and then one day they walk up those bus steps and wave good-bye on their way to Kindergarten and it seems like you blink your eyes and they are driving home with their High School Diploma. It makes me just want to put a stake in the ground that stops the world from spinning and scream, "STOP! Just wait! I like things just the way they are!" If only it worked that way....

So for now....maybe I'll stop and think about my feelings this week before I fuss about having to drive someone across town, or stay up late to pick one of them up or nag someone about cleaning their room.... because if the room is messy...it means they are still here!